I have been so damn busy... T-T
I'm at lost to do...

I have a theater competition coming up on the 29th, and I need to memorize all my lines before Monday, then we have to learn all the staging...ok so perfect it, we know it already. Then we have to get it all together to the T. Ugh...

Also I have to do a college essay which is due the 20th for British Literature, then I have a 7ish page report on a short story author due the 21st, or is the dates the other way around... fuck...
whatever, but either way... I DON"T HAVE ENOUGH TIME!
I might be starting another kind of class at 4, but I don't know yet.
I want to drop my Computer Animation class...its so boring... X____X

Walking home every freakin day is killing me... its so hot... T-T

And now I lost my friend Jade completely and that fucking sucks. Everyone is getting on my ass about me not calling them... I don't have time to talk to anyone and everyone is getting mad at me! T-T I'm sorry...I'm falling asleep at 8 o'clock now. I DON'T DO THAT! But then I am being awakened by people calling me at 2 am or whatever... yelling because I didn't call them earlier.

Ugh... I want this to enddddddd....


~Falls Over and Dies~

XD

-Kitchi

I START SCHOOL TOMORROW!

Le-gasp! *Cries*

there goes every day on the computer X_X
eh I had to go to school today to hand in papers. X_X I was sucked right back into the place. Felt like I never left, and I was there for only 5 minutes. SO NOT COOL!

but yea, luckily I will be coming home around 12:30-1pm! THAT SO AWESOME!
Though I have to walk every single flippin day... X_X I wish we lived closer!
But yea
I have been so busy...


Rawr... -randomly stabs Jade in the eye-

Damn him X_x He was so mean to me today... T-T I HATE GUYS! RAWR! Why are they always so freakin rude?!

ANYWAY!

location: Home music: AGH! The internet is for porn

So much is kinda going on. I'm in a really good mood, and I mean really, its actually kinda strange after being smacked in the fact with so much drama, I just don't care. I'm not letting it effect me as much!

I believe that is a good sign, neh?

( You KNOW you want to read more, because theres pictures inside! XD )

location: Home music: Err...tv?

I think i have food poisoning, I want to curl up in my bed and go to sleep and never wake up.


T___T


Why do I always pick the girlfriends that are clingy. X______x Lately one of my ex have been so clingy and annoying, call me weak and pathetic. Dude...Grow up! *scoffs*

T_T I want to call Galan!!! *cries*

Ok...I'm done. I think...


ugh, well, I start school again in a few weaks. X_____X I have a feeling its going to be a very lonely year, but I don't care, the sooner I graduate the sooner I can move! Weee!

Also in 2 months I get to get my tattoo and I can't wait! <3 i already have the design, its going to be a butterfly on my hip and I can't wait to get it. A really good friend designed it for me so I know its going to be one of a kind, and its special! <3
Also I get to get my tongue pierced soon, which I can't wait for! I was thinking of getting a tri-bar, but that would be over kill. Plus I want two more piercings on my right ear, totaling 6 on my right ear, and 2 on my left. I love piercings.

Mhh...let see...what else...I feel sick. X_____X

Ah! I should be getting a job soon, so I can get that damn new phone turned on... mhhh...
I've been working on art again <3 wee
and writing more often! ♥

I will keep everyone updated. ♥

Kitchi-kun

location: Home music: everything- lifehouse

I've been kinda emotional these last few days, I don't want to talk about it. But this song makes me cry...every single time I listen to it. X_x

Its dedicated to someone, but I won't say who.

location: Home music: Everything- lifehouse

This post kept me up all night because I've had it in my head and couldn't write it until now...

I have been roleplaying for say about: 4? years, give a few, but don't take.
And I have seen a lot and a lot has effected me.

3 years ago after my boyfriend died, I had promised myself I wouldn't get close to anyone, at least not close enough to fall in love. Well that didn't work.

Now I look at myself and I see a reason for my recent distress.

5 people claim to be in love with me.
And I am supposed to pick between them.

I would like to point out that fact that 4 of them are girls, like myself...I never expected that. Hell I never expected any of this. It seemed to have happened, over night, suddenly I find myself swept up in love games. It confuses me and well, its a pain in the butt. XD

Kathleen: She is the first person who I trusted after the death of Charlie, the first person I was willing to careful, and I will honestly say I still do care for her.
I think because even after all that she and I went through I have a feeling that if I went to her, she would still open her arms for me and cradle me, telling me its all ok and that no matter what she'll love me. Shes the one person whom I can touch and believe that she is real.
Shes there, and I know it. Shes my best friend even now after we broke up. *clings to Kathleen* We really need to go hang out ♥

Mary: I blame this women for a lot of my problems...a lot. She is the reason that I broke up with Kathleen. T-T Stupid me. I thought I found something with her, I believed in her and sought happiness. But the whole times I was being used. Stupid me.

She was using me to get back at her other girlfriend. Le-gasp! -__- The funny thing is I was willing to forget and go on, but No she has to come back and toss my mind in turmoil...she had the gall to call me weak... I will destroy her... <-- slight revenge?

Galan: The first guy that I have ever felt anything for in...3 years. And that scares the living hell out of me. I know I have a future with this man, and I look forward to it. I want to embrace it and move on with him. I really do more then anything. But perhaps because we have yet to meet face to face, my fears only increase and I think more and more about what if we won't work. And I Know I shouldn't look at things that way, but its hard not to. >_<
But I can honestly say: I love Galan.

he-he, and I read a book last night, and it had his name in it! XD It was a romance novel! XDDDDDDD SO NOT GOING THERE <3333333

ANYWAY!

Christine: I will admit, this women scares me sometimes X___x I cannot deny the fact that sometimes I feel stalked by her. XD
But the whole thing with being told 'I love you' in 6 different languages. Pretty darn cool. XD
However I know that I can't have a future with her at all. Even if I want to. I trust her as a friend, someone that I can go to when I need comfort and love. She gets a little obsessive about getting me...but I can handle it...sometimes, except when I'm having a bad day.
I can only hope that she will be able to move on, like I wish for Kathleen. I love both Kathleen and Christine dearly, and maybe not just as 'friends' but people whom I can trust my life to.

And finally: the Last girl: has a girlfriend and got laid this weekend, so we're just really really really good friends. XDDDDDDD


So yea, thats what has been going through my mind as of late. I feel drained and tired, now that I got myself sick. X______X I just want to sleep endlessly, but here is it 7ish whateverish and I can't sleep. So lets not mention that I was woken up at 5:30am and have been up ever since. X__X

Ugh...

I don't think anyone is going to comment this journal entry...people rarely do...maybe I am just writing to myself...but at least I can get these thoughts out and if anyone cares to comment...its a nice things to read...

ta-ta for now. I might update later on today.

-slams head on desk and snores- ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz....


-Kithci

location: La-home

So, yea, this is a role play that I did with a friend.

Though I warn you, content is more of the 21 years and older. Its pretty darn strange... ok REALLY strange.

The idea was Abaris'...the damn fuggin vampire/demon thing.

Only thing I did was edit the colors. Green in my post, black is his. That simple.
As a roleplay it goes smooth, as a story not so smooth.

Also: This is a taken seen, I didn't put the parts before and after with the Angel, its cut. >_< too long...

TTILE: Morning Feast
RATING: 21 and over
SUMMARY: The half-breed was being droven nuts by the smell of blood, he wanted it desired it, but couldn't find out where it was, but his other half Abaris appears. He finds the source of it.
DISCLAIMER: The character Abaris isn't mine, but my friends who plays his so effin awesomely~
Also the character Soubi doesn't belong to me either.

( Morning Feast )

location: La Desk At Home! music: NOTHING! XD

I get bored sometimes:


( I want )

location: Home music: I have no idea! XD

Just a something I wrote really early in the morning.

( Listen )

location: Home music: Echose of darkness

I'm tired, and its nearly midnight...

I won't be on that much till next Tues. My Mother is having surgery Monday and after that, I'm staying home by myself for like a week.

I'll be on... more on MySpace I bet...don't know why...

but yea, best wishes to everyone.

Night.

-Saki

AND SWEDISH MUSIC ROCKS!!!!!

Ok....
dare I say it?

Can I really?

>.>
<.<

Well guys: I am happy! I am so freakin Happy right now! I have no real reason why, I just am.

I feel bad for some people and I know that my happiness cause them pain, but at the same time... I... well...

I believe things might turn out for the better. And I really really hope things will work out for Ta-kun, I have hurt her way to much...

but without Ta-kun, I know i wouldn't be happy today...or really even around. XD

Thanks Ta-kun.

But: There is this Guy (O__O <-- Oh My God! I actually wrote that?!) -ahem-

well...there is this guy...and well, hes nice and sweet...and damn, fucking fine! XD (lol) He treats me fantasticlly <-- is that a word?

This is all really really werid for me... I mean i haven't like a 'guy' in 3 years! Almost 4! thats a really long time... so I feel all werid inside, and I don't know what to do...should I try? I want to...but I know that people will get hurt if I go with this guy... I mean I just don't know what to do...


I'm so confused. I mean we are constantly on the phone...a lot...and we even fall asleep on the phone ♥ and so we wake up to each other's voices... is that weird?

But i like it... don't know why... i just do...


Also, well, he says he loves me. I think its a little too soon for him to be 'in love' with me...but its nice to hear it...and well I know that i love him, I just don't think I am 'in love' with him. Is that bad?

Wow...I have no idea what to do...this is all werid...I mean... HES A GUY! what am I supposed to do... I mean... -blush- he has one of those ...

T.T

Any advice?

Ok! So I just finished the last exam of the year, and damn if I am not brain dead....

Whoever thought of 2 - 3 hours tests in ONE sitting... deserve to be shot...

Yea...

things are going pretty well...i mean I'm in more Neh? I'm actually updating more then ONCE a week...
-shifty eyes-

Thanks for the support...I only hope I can get more...

I've been writing like crazy and have been thinking about post drabbles...
what do you all think about that?

I have a lot of free time lately...

Any Ideas...if anyone wants one written by me, I'm open on ideas. ^^

mood: silly

Ok! Who wants some pictures from I-con 26...that includes pictures of me...and my purple hair!!

location: Home music: Within Temptation

>.> 
<.< 

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I am so FUDGIN HAPPY! OMFG! 

I just got my Saiyuki Order! AND OMG! 

I got my first EVER Homura X Sanzo Doujinshi!! ITS SO CUTE...>.> and sad T.T 
BUT OMG! 

I got an artbook...on the OVA...which I haven't seen...must get that now...*___* 

I got the Saiyuki Drama CD VIII Faith In Mind:
I fudgin love it so much! Its fantastic! I love it! *Dances around* 
I also got the Saiyuki Image Album! Its got Chin Ii Sou's song (which was introducted to me by a friend) I wasn't aware I got that CD until I got it! WOOTZA! 

What eles....

OoH! Gotta finished this later.. I'll edit this later.